i wonder

i really do

it'll come to me. good things come to those who wait, right?

wow

that shit was bound to happen doe

i'm bored

FUCK NOT AGAINNNNNN

its k

im such an idealistic piece of shit

just kidding

nevermind

but it was a good run

for the most part
we were kids

why even

never again

i miss us doe

I am thankful for

everyone who has been/is a part of my life.

No matter who you are, you have affected me in some way, contributed to my collection of memories, and have served a purpose in being in my life.

Thank you.

into the salty sea

The episode of Gossip Girls I just watched really parallels my life. Completely relevant. The day is Thanksgiving.

Exactly a year ago, I had lunch with my family and dinner with Johnny's family. There was a party, so there were more families there. Berna's parents just happened to know Johnny's grandparents. We all hung out in the driveway and rode on Christian's long board that he let Johnny borrow. And Dean eventually came. It was nice walking around and just hanging out. Mandy and Kevin alternated their celebrations between their families. I knew they had a good time too.

This year, since the vagabonds are no more, the holidays are a bit different. We'll spend time with our own families instead of trying to balance everything out. We won't have to worry about bringing our significant other to parties or anything. And black Friday won't involve the sets of best friends sleeping over and meeting up at the mall.

It's going to be so different. So lonely? Not lonely, but more like ... relieving in a way. Of course, it shouldn't take one day for us to count our blessings.

Since I'm feeling nostalgic, I'm very thankful for all I've been through this year with the vagabonds. I miss our bond, our little band of misfits. I miss the compatibility of us altogether. Of course, I can't take it all back. I'm glad I went through it all and I wouldn't mind reliving those moments again. Thank you Johnny, Kevin, and Mandy. It was a nice run.

voice

its soothing
i like it

Except, I'm better now

You're right, I don't need you

too soon?

is it?

omg

gentleman
same thoughts
nice voice
and style
you sing?


aw shit

It's a dream

are you real?

The sea, the sea is calling me. It's where I want to be, with you and you with me. Again.

of course

now that i think about it
it was nice.

okay fuck you doe
for putting me through it again

fuck you j

its okay though.
i know now
that
you weren't worth the time