but in other news

i've taken up longboarding and conformed and bought a pair of vans

so on friday i got shitfaced for the first time :(
and i was the only one

midnight city

i'm a fucking idiot. pathetic, and a loner.
i'm too hard on myself.
and i feel like no one wants me.

at least i'm liberated by the confines of the expectations of society.
and here i am.
free alone.

i'm craving endless, sleepless, music filled nights.
just the stars, the sky, and the steering wheel.

i miss you.

i know, i know

i'm still alive i think .
random and out of order from my 19th birthday to yesterday