bye

I need to stop

expecting things. From everyone.

163 hours later

.. i'm okay. that is, if you wanted to know.

what if i dont want to wake up

From this dream, it seems so real and its all that I want. Every single night its the same dream.

crumble

You picked a perfect time to leave, when I really need a best friend.
I was so used to you just being there because I told you everything.
Also, my parents don't help. Everything else is just a huge burden and I feel like I am crumbling. All I need is support right now, and I just really wish you were here for that.

my daily cry lasted one hour today. yay i feel better. not going to spend the rest of the day inside though, but what to do.. hm

this is pathetic

scratch that, I AM PATHETIC

this is pathetic

scratch that, I AM PATHETIC

But you did unintentionally play with my feelings by throwing me around like a fucking toy

Well dammit

Who would have seen it, because I didn't. I didn't know you would turn out to be one of them. Indeed, you have cut me into little fucking pieces. Listening to heartbreaking music isn't helping me right now, haha. You probably don't realize the asshole moves you made though. How can I receive closure from a fucking message. You don't know what you put me through. I will grow from this, I shouldn't worry about you. BUT I STILL CANT FUCKING BELIEVE YOU. I'll forgive you eventually, but not any time soon. It's always like this.

i cant help raising the question, "its my fault." then again youre the only one that changed

There are times when I am happy and when I am sad through out the day, and when I'm sad I can't eat. At least you're happy.