Dear p

I don't know why, but my subconscious has made me aware that my feelings for you have not yet subsided as I thought they did. This upcoming trip is making me feel half anxious and half excited- if it even happens that is. I don't even know why, man. I don't want to because this whole thing is unrequited and it makes me feel like a little girl again. Out of my reach indeed because I can only connect with you on a certain level. Besides, you're my best friend's type anyway... lolololol but she likes your almost equivalent twin. Which is pretty funny. Anywho, you're a great guy, but stay my friend.